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This must be the meaning
Of summer living
Spending all my days and time
Doing nothing
There is no climax,
There is no resolution
There is no problem
So there will be no solution
Recieve, receive, receive more information
Make your brain feel like it’s doing something
I’ve been doing something, right here right now with you
I hope you chop off my head in front of all of my friends
Oh yeah I wish I was dead
I said I wish I was dead
The dark points in the sky, The floaters in my eyes, conspired, to make this night worthwhile
This must mean I'm free
It’s a sign from the gods
All online making nothing more than educated guesses
About how i live my life
I guess it is about time
That i got my shit together
But i’ve got no support no system to help me get through the weather
I guess I’ve always had my friends
But I can’t really talk to them without
Throwing up my words my thoughts come out like vomit
I’m always told I'm low on empathy but really i think i just don’t think before i speak
The floaters in my eyes
The dark points in the sky
I don't wanna know how i die
And i know you’ve been waiting here for so damn long,
But i will not wait for you,
I will proceed i with my life
But in the haze the fog i swear i saw you,
Sitting on your tombstone,
You were sitting there at night
We were playing with fire
But Knives don’t cut deeper than
The words you say to me,
And my feet are bruised from walking home, Walking in your shoes,
And
my feet are from walking home,
Walking home in your shoes
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The birthdays don't feel that fun anymore
And the christmases were never the same
Don’t you think that sometimes
It'd be nice to change sometimes?
I feint for no excuses, you’re in my arms and I’m feeling useless
I am just waiting to be harmed
Like the firework dances, a display of bright lights to make your eyes hurt from the sight
Always growing, always extending
Always reciprocating the pain
Always falling through these window
Oh I’m singing through these glass tables
You wanna represent your mistakes
You wanna make it seem like it’s fate
I wanna be alive but I don’t wanna have a life
The birthdays don't feel that fun anymore
And the christmases were never the same
Don’t you think that sometimes
It'd be nice to change sometimes?
I feint for no excuses, you’re in my arms and I’m feeling useless
I am just waiting to be harmed
I just need to get through this week
Wouldn’t you like to be alone sometimes?,
Wouldn’t you like to be alone sometimes?,
Wouldn’t you like to be alone sometimes?,
You like to be alone sometimes,
Staying up all night wracking my brain for answers,
Equations to solve this pain
Wouldn’t you like to be alone sometimes?,
Wouldn’t you like to be alone sometimes?,
Wouldn't you like to be alone sometimes?,
You like to be alone sometimes,
Staying up all night wracking my brain for answers,
Equations to solve this pain
You like to be alone sometimes
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So decide
Between a fist fight and all these red skies The sky was dark like it was at night
When the sun caught up I swear i caught it inside
My room, theres people sitting straight outside
My window, I’d smash them open but I know its not that simple
I keep pushing hourglasses
And the hour hand but it’s not that simple to understand
And i know it’s not that simple,
And i know it’s not that easy,
You’re walking a line between not knowing your friends and what is gonna harm you when you’re dead,
Now that we conserve all our energy inside, please open your windows and we’ll set them free
I’m sure you you’re aware that it has gotten harder,
And I’ve made myself scarce,
Around all the spots you used to be,
I wish we could remain in early 2018
But I know it’ll never be that simple,
It’ll never be that easy
Please stop taking so much,
I don’t have enough,
Please stop expecting I’m right,
Cause i am so fucking wrong,
Yeah I am so fucking numb,
And i am getting deja vu,
To another point with you,
Please stop complimenting me,
I’m begging you to be mean,
Please stop expecting that I know, oh
Please stop making me achieve,
Please stop making me achieve
We’re always turning around from this,
Pressure from the back seat driver baby drive me insane tonight,
We’re always turning around from this,
Pressure from the back seat driver baby drive me insane tonight
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i’d give u my jacket if i had the chance
but i’ve fallen too late
it’s out of my hands
i wanted to tell you what i would do
but now you’ve moved on and don’t have a clue
how i feel
about you
if i had waited
been a little more patient
maybe i’d have you
cause i’ve dug myself deep
into a hole of thoughts
cant remember if i held the shovel at all
i’ve tripped and fallen
i didn’t get to see
what life could have been like
with you and me
i’d have texted you more, if i wasn’t so stupid
but you’ve changed my contact
god i feel stupid
i wanted to call you for hours on end
but now you call someone else
and i’m just a friend
oh but
if i hadnt have wish all my life away
i could tell you my thoughts
and get you to stay
i’ve tried and i’ve tried and i’ve tried
to forget you
but the memory lingers
of me without you
ooooh oooOooOh
if i had said something
i could tell you
that i need you
cause i’ve dug myself deep
into a hole of thoughts
cant remember if i held the shovel at all
i’ve tripped and fallen
i didn’t get to see
what life could have been like
with you and me
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I’m in love with the people that we once were darling,
Tear my body apart my body shakes and my heart knows,
I’m the fucking asshole
I am not reciting anything,
But I was out at night,
I’m in love with the person that you once were,
No matter how hard I struggle,
I have not managed to free myself from her grasp,
It gets harder but in my heart of hearts I know,
I was the one in charge of this failure
Minor tragedies on an ultra personal scale,
One to one events that i will never ask about and you will not tell,
And I’ll say I am so lucky to have not experience them,
I have friends and I have friends
And i am sure that they have
And the heater burns up
And the coffee mugs are never enough
I don’t wanna die in a fire,
I wanna to retire, I wanna to live peacefully,
But we said that we’d drank too much,
Wanting to save the world,
We can’t save ourselves,
An X-ray of the brain, receipts and magazines
I don’t wanna know what’s your latest catastrophe,
We built up our ideals
For a world that we don’t own,
For a world that we don’t know,
We talk about house fires and plane crashes,
But what’s the point if we can’t even deal with our taxes
Minor tragedies on an ultra personal scale,
One to one events that i will never ask about and you will not tell,
And I’ll say I am so lucky to have not experience them,
But i have friends and I have friends
And i am sure that they have,
And I’ll say I am so lucky to have not experience them,
But i have friends and I have friends
And i am sure that they have,
I read lines to make you feel something,
I read lines to make you feel something,
I know I’ll be ok but i still feel the pain,
It’s not all that bad so why do I feel sad
Just because there’s people with brain tumours
That means I’m not allowed to have a headache?,
My life is great and I don’t know what to do when I’m without,
Without you,
And I know
Control, oh
You can control,
You can control your thoughts,
It’s my peace,
It is perfectly in tune,
And I,
I still haunt your coffin while you haunt my room
The latest emo bands still hasn’t written a song about you
Sometimes things happen and nobody bats an eye,
The world keeps on spinning she says “I don’t wanna die”,
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I want to be praised to develop my skills
I am but a tissue box i needed to be used
Stupidly rely upon that which gives you thrills
Give me purpose in those words the lack of which makes you hurt
I am not honest with my friends
I shit talk them
To get attention but
I am waking up at 3pm and spending most my time inside
I’ll sleep when the sun begins to rise
I cant get this shit out of my eyes
When I sit alone I don’t think I just know
I act so fucking kind but I am so self absorbed
Taking traits from those I deem better than me
I admire what it takes but to feel loved I need to be
told that It’s alright, that I am safe here
Call me narcissistic I don’t care but it’s my fear
That the picture I’ve built up of myself will collapse
And underneath you’ll all discover im not that cool I just didn’t want you guys to see that
Your lips in my teeth
Anxious and erratic
Everything I do is for appeal I’m automatically
Saying I’m the best saying It’s alright,
But Inside I know that I’m just a liar
Set me on fire it wouldn’t make a difference when I’m already burning up
I am not honest with my friends
I shit talk them
To get attention but
I am waking up at 3pm and spending most my time inside I’ll sleep when the sun begins to rise
I cant get this shit out of my eyes
It just gets brighter outside
No matter what is the time
It just gets brighter outside
I do not wanna die like this but I am just taking the piss on people who I do not talk to anymore
I just learned another of my idols pathetically abandoned my
I can’t handle being single but i get so upset when they can’t take what I give
All the time call me nice and fuel my praise complex
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Your teeth are chattering from the cold
The demons you drank with have all gone home,
And the heat, the ones that survived
I would write it down but I can’t be bothered to try,
I’m losing hope I’m all alone,
And some are left but they’re chewing on bones,
The presence of indecision in the air,
I don’t want to act like I’m not scared,
I sat alone In chartered flights I never did
But now I confuse my left and right hand,
Look back at the life I’ve had,
And I smile because it’s never coming back,
Just like an angel of death or the sequel to humanity,
You’ve come back to life to rescue me,
The cold will save us from the heat,
And the devils that got out alive I hope you’re warming up our seats,
On the grassy plane,
At the edge of a field,
At the edge of summer and the snow doesn’t yield,
In your book corner,
With your bean bags,
Readings ways to survive a plane crash,
And I heard him say before I left,
I heard him say before I left,
I heard him say before I left,
The final part of hypothermia,
Is feeling like your body is on fire,
I was burning alive
Just like the coffee mug
In my eyesight,
Reading many things at the time,
And it’s all over your brown eyes,
I wanna to know how to stay alive,
I’ve never been the type to go into things unprepared,
But if you’ll be my Christmas lights,
Then I’ll be your Halloween scares,
And I know it’s not your fault,
I know it’s, no it’s not your fault,
I know it’s, I know it’s not your fault,
I know it’s not your fault,
On the grassy plane,
At the edge of a field,
At the edge of summer and the snow doesn’t yield,
In your book corner
With your bean bags
Reading ways to survive a plane crash,
In your brick house,
With your fire place,
With your hot cocoa,
And your magically normal way,
To keep the hot air in,
By a margin I will keep the cold air out,
There’s movies based off this discovery,
The feeling underneath and it covers me,
Nerves begin to fail,
Heart rate drops to 0 beats per minute,
Just like this song,
There’s movies based off this discovery,
The feeling underneath and it covers me,
I never said that we couldn’t last
I put your voicemails on blast,
The plastic warmed my heart
With your fire place,
And your warm air,
And your good food,
And the bomb scare,
And the engines that never seem to work,
And the feeling of turbulence I saw,
I saw bodies huddled in the wingshafts, Smothered by metal to try to get it out,
I saw bloodshot eyes as we stayed up at night,
Always knowing the frost wouldn’t give us respite,
I saw the hope drain from your eye,
I saw your stomach impaled by ice
I saw the stalagmites of my heart,
Break off and shatter into tiny parts,
And I saw humanity at its worst,
My last words were oh how the heat hurts, Oh how the heat hurts,
I saw men chew on snickers bars,
Rationed, but at that point they were hard,
More than the cold or the heat, the thing that killed us was our own humility
But I still don’t feel free,
And I’m singing out of key,
But I still don’t feel free,
No I still don’t,
And for the rain that turns to snow,
I wanna see it outside my car windows,
I wanna see you count down from ten,
When I left the house we were already dead
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And I will not leave my room today, talk today,
I refuse to conversate,
You know these power chords that I play,
They don’t really numb the pain,
Apathetic and detached,
Break yourself down be a martyr,
For the people you won’t know,
It’s for the play, it’s for the stage show,
But I have had enough of that,
Always acting like I’m going through the motions,
Make yourself into a fire axe,
And crack the wood that stops your emotions,
I know we don’t really act like it
But dear I love you too
I dont want to,
But i have to,
The silence in between is what keeps us awake,
Seventeen, no job, no friends
I should’ve of grown out of this when i was 13,
Struggling, no friends,
No assessments,
In handed, no perfection
I was happy but then it caught up to me
Expectations are so heavy now,
To stay, to stay, i have to leave
This place, This place, its not for me
To stay, to stay, i have to leave
This place, This place, its not for me
So I left, I left, and left and all my friends abandoned me,
They’re out pulling weeds like pulling roses,
I made my nose into a knife,
I said so raise your voice, I wanted to be dead,
This love is a cancer a disease
I always risked you loving me
All this blood and love that my heart
Pulling weeds like pulling roses
All this blood and love the heart takes,
And the nose forms into knife,
Your life your soul is failing me,
Your life your soul is failing me,
I hope you’re happy for me,
I hope you’re happy for me,
I hope you’re happy for me,
Happy for me,
To stay, to stay, i have to leave,
This place, This place, its not for me,
To stay, to stay, i had to leave,
This place, This place, its not for me,
So you had it written down
But it was never enough
And my friend stole the car
So the sea called his bluff
But i will always imagine that summer,
And our arms together,
In the trees shadows,
Lining the pavement with the light
from the green and the ants in the grass
What did you mean?,
When you wrote it down,
Were you trying to connect our hearts to,
sing a song, sing along for when we are apart,
So i will hold my hand out, for when i was there,
So i will hope that we change key,
I will hope you’re there for me,
When i cant defend myself, when I can’t defend myself,
But you’re my friend, so I’ll write it down just like you told me to do,
I miss you mum i miss you dad, i miss it all not ending,
But you’re my friend so I’ll write it down, just like you told me to do,
I miss you dad i miss you mom,
I miss it all not ending,
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I am likely,
To act unkindly,
It’s not supposed to be,
Think of you highly,
But I’m sorry,
It’s not supposed to be,
Did i hurt you?,
And did I ruin,
Almost everything?,
I didn’t want to,
And never thought to,
Complicate small things,
I overthunk it,
Took it for granted,
I wanted it to stop,
I was manic,
In shock and panic,
I wanted it to stop,
I can’t move forward,
Can’t erase the portrait,
Out of my own mind,
So I’m still haunted,
But I can’t control it,
It’s always my own mind,
I’m hurting deeply,
I’m always sleepy,
But cannot get to rest,
I got excited,
And didn’t like it,
Now I’m just upset,
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we're a indie band from newcastle, australia. we make a mix of emo, shoegaze, punk and indie muisc. our members are clem, june, ollie and max. we appreciate any support and listens!.
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