And I will not leave my room today, talk today,
I refuse to conversate,
You know these power chords that I play,
They don’t really numb the pain,
Apathetic and detached,
Break yourself down be a martyr,
For the people you won’t know,
It’s for the play, it’s for the stage show,
But I have had enough of that,
Always acting like I’m going through the motions,
Make yourself into a fire axe,
And crack the wood that stops your emotions,
I know we don’t really act like it
But dear I love you too

I dont want to,
But i have to,
The silence in between is what keeps us awake,
Seventeen, no job, no friends
I should’ve of grown out of this when i was 13,
Struggling, no friends,
No assessments,
In handed, no perfection

I was happy but then it caught up to me
Expectations are so heavy now,

To stay, to stay, i have to leave
This place, This place, its not for me
To stay, to stay, i have to leave
This place, This place, its not for me

So I left, I left, and left and all my friends abandoned me,
They’re out pulling weeds like pulling roses,
I made my nose into a knife,
I said so raise your voice, I wanted to be dead,
This love is a cancer a disease
I always risked you loving me
All this blood and love that my heart
Pulling weeds like pulling roses
All this blood and love the heart takes,
And the nose forms into knife,
Your life your soul is failing me,
Your life your soul is failing me,
I hope you’re happy for me,
I hope you’re happy for me,
I hope you’re happy for me,
Happy for me,

To stay, to stay, i have to leave,
This place, This place, its not for me,
To stay, to stay, i had to leave,
This place, This place, its not for me,

So you had it written down
But it was never enough
And my friend stole the car
So the sea called his bluff
But i will always imagine that summer,
And our arms together,
In the trees shadows,
Lining the pavement with the light
from the green and the ants in the grass

What did you mean?,
When you wrote it down,
Were you trying to connect our hearts to,
sing a song, sing along for when we are apart,
So i will hold my hand out, for when i was there,
So i will hope that we change key,
I will hope you’re there for me,
When i cant defend myself, when I can’t defend myself,
But you’re my friend, so I’ll write it down just like you told me to do,
I miss you mum i miss you dad, i miss it all not ending,
But you’re my friend so I’ll write it down, just like you told me to do,
I miss you dad i miss you mom,
I miss it all not ending,